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The backstory.
I started working in an office over the summer when I was 14. I picked up the same office job the following summer (and pretty much every summer until I turned 22). During the school year, I worked at local fast food place, was in drama and speech team and was heavily involved with my church and youth group. I started college right out of high school. Took full course load each semester and classes over the summer, plus I worked full time. Now, I’m not saying that to be all “yay me” or anything, but it makes what I’m about to say, well a little more powerful…
I started working in an office over the summer when I was 14. I picked up the same office job the following summer (and pretty much every summer until I turned 22). During the school year, I worked at local fast food place, was in drama and speech team and was heavily involved with my church and youth group. I started college right out of high school. Took full course load each semester and classes over the summer, plus I worked full time. Now, I’m not saying that to be all “yay me” or anything, but it makes what I’m about to say, well a little more powerful…
The twist.
after all that hard work, I quit my full-time TENURED teaching position in, if I’m honest, an extremely financially secure school district in the middle of an economic depression. Why? So I could be a SAHM to my two young boys. For all you who are confused right now, as I was at first, SAHM = Stay At Home Mom. Now, seriously, it’s not like we didn’t think it through. but the more my hubby and I prayed on it, thought about it and examined it (and our budget) it became more and more obvious that it was the right decision for us.
after all that hard work, I quit my full-time TENURED teaching position in, if I’m honest, an extremely financially secure school district in the middle of an economic depression. Why? So I could be a SAHM to my two young boys. For all you who are confused right now, as I was at first, SAHM = Stay At Home Mom. Now, seriously, it’s not like we didn’t think it through. but the more my hubby and I prayed on it, thought about it and examined it (and our budget) it became more and more obvious that it was the right decision for us.
The truth.
I’m one of those people that is so used to being busy that I thought I would go crazy being a SAHM – honestly, I wondered what I would do with all that free time. So, now that that’s out in the open, I can honestly tell you that being at home all day is SCARY! It’s the hardest job I’ve ever had! All veteran SAHMs are saying “Amen” and laughing right now. I have no idea what to do with my “free time” because it doesn’t exist. And oh yeah, there’s so much to try and keep up with that I get overwhelmed because there’s no formal structure, like hourly bells, to tell me when to change gears.
I’m one of those people that is so used to being busy that I thought I would go crazy being a SAHM – honestly, I wondered what I would do with all that free time. So, now that that’s out in the open, I can honestly tell you that being at home all day is SCARY! It’s the hardest job I’ve ever had! All veteran SAHMs are saying “Amen” and laughing right now. I have no idea what to do with my “free time” because it doesn’t exist. And oh yeah, there’s so much to try and keep up with that I get overwhelmed because there’s no formal structure, like hourly bells, to tell me when to change gears.
The premise.
and now we arrive at the premise to my “revamping” my blog and this really long tale. I’m going to let “you all” in on my journey to becoming a homemaker. I’m not going to call myself a SAHM, and the reason is two-fold. 1) there are few days we actually stay at home 2) there’s a connotation among many in my generation that SAHM are not the hardworking, diligent women that most of them actually are. So I am a homemaker – a woman who is actively engaging in the daily work of building and maintaining a house and home – or at least that’s what I’m working toward.
and now we arrive at the premise to my “revamping” my blog and this really long tale. I’m going to let “you all” in on my journey to becoming a homemaker. I’m not going to call myself a SAHM, and the reason is two-fold. 1) there are few days we actually stay at home 2) there’s a connotation among many in my generation that SAHM are not the hardworking, diligent women that most of them actually are. So I am a homemaker – a woman who is actively engaging in the daily work of building and maintaining a house and home – or at least that’s what I’m working toward.
The qualifiers.
Now, if you were to ask my husband about all of this, he would probably tell you how amazing I am and how I do all this already, blah blah blah. but my goal is to break it down, share my journey, my successes and many failures. And in the process be very real about it all. I’m not perfect and not creative, mostly I follow the motto of teachers around the world – I beg, borrow and steal great ideas from fellow people and then tweak to make it my own. I’ll do my best to give credit to whom it’s due. Hopefully, someone will be encouraged by what they read, maybe someone will get an idea of their own, or maybe – if I’m lucky – someone will decide to come along side me in this journey of becoming a homemaker.
Now, if you were to ask my husband about all of this, he would probably tell you how amazing I am and how I do all this already, blah blah blah. but my goal is to break it down, share my journey, my successes and many failures. And in the process be very real about it all. I’m not perfect and not creative, mostly I follow the motto of teachers around the world – I beg, borrow and steal great ideas from fellow people and then tweak to make it my own. I’ll do my best to give credit to whom it’s due. Hopefully, someone will be encouraged by what they read, maybe someone will get an idea of their own, or maybe – if I’m lucky – someone will decide to come along side me in this journey of becoming a homemaker.
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